Apathy - lack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern.
That has been my life for the past few months. I don't know what happened to make things this way, but that's where I find myself. In a world of apathy. And I can't say that I'm fully apathetic about everything, because I do care deeply about other things in my life. But as far as my diet has gone, for the past several months, I've definitely had a lack of enthusiasm concerning my physical well-being.
I think the main problem has been that I have failed miserably in every attempt that I've ever made. My weight has been the bane of my existence for as long as I can remember. I've never felt pretty enough or good enough with all of my friends who have better bodies than I do. And I know that all women have troubles with their self-esteem, but I feel horrible even being in the same room with them most of the time. I feel like the hulking ogre with all of the princesses around.
I guess I'm writing this to say that I'm doing my absolute best to get back on track with my weight-loss journey this week and I really do covet your prayers. I have a serious love affair with food that has to be stopped now. I honestly don't feel strong enough within myself, but I know that in my weakness, God shows His strength. So please pray with me that things will get better and I'll find the willpower that I need to overcome.
I love you all and appreciate your support.
